Rain's raining

We hang out for tea and supper yesterday. There's no aim on where to go, so we just stop by for aiskacang, and then walk along down to the street for coffee. It was very gloomy when we step out the cafe, we just wandering around the town. You told me the rain in the city where you're currently living in is totally different. You like the rain over here more. The breeze is so soothing. I feel like I wanna tell you that I was rain. But I just kept quite and walk besides you. 

After that we drive all around the town, I ask you if you can drive to look around the school. It was 7 years back then when we're apart and those days seems like just happen yesterday. I remember you told me that I never change in these 7 years. The way you speak are so determined and calm. It seems like you're very sure of something. Well, I would say that I don't really understand myself. But the one thing that I'm pretty sure is, I'm still very stupid like what I used to be because I'm still believing in what you say. No matter what happen, maybe I never grow inside you, no matter how hard I try to be strong and independent, but the way you speak always makes me feel like I'm a kid that you always have to care. I try my best to be strong, but you show me that I'm so fragile. 

Time just bring you back again to me, I feel grateful to have you in most of my very lonely moments in US. When you say just take it easy, I feel like this is what I wanna hear for the past 10 years. I feel so secure no matter what you say. 

I didn't really expect that you walk in my life again. Yesterday at 11 when you pick me up at night I see you walk into the gate and walking towards me. You purposely come just to fetch me away and without asking anything. Driving along at night in the town again and pick up 2 places for supper. I didn't actually eat because you eat almost everything. It was very strange because we hang out until 1am just to accompany you for supper. I say, it was your last meal in hometown for this trip. It was heavy for us to mention about that. 

There's no a proper goodbye, not even a hug. I'm really not generous enough cause I don't know how to face these painful moments. I don't want to sent you off, I just want to make myself to feel like you'll come back very soon. So I say see you sometimes. I actually wanna say that I'll miss you a lot. 

Goodbye piggy. Thank you because you brought all my memories in school day alive. You make me appreciate some particular moments that we've together. Maybe time is just trying to explain something to us, and maybe it'll takes a 7 years more to know that.